A Nightmare
In the beginning of the dream it was as if I was watching a
movie. It seemed to be a crime drama sort of thing, taking place
in a run-down littered urban neighborhood. Colors had the
washed-out look that you see in a lot of films from the
‘70s. A big car of a steely gray color pulled up beside a
smaller car of some vague color that was sitting by the curb or
at a stop sign. Two men jumped out of the gray car, dragged a man
from the other car, and began beating him. All three of them
looked something like movie gangsters, the two new arrivals in
coats and ties and the victim in a shabby and dingy white shirt.
He sank to the ground almost immediately beneath their fists and
kicks.
Almost immediately a police car arrived. I felt relieved that
help had appeared so quickly. At the same time a crowd had begun
to gather. A man wearing a suit and sunglasses jumped out of the
police car and began berating the two men who were doing the
beating, yelling at them, pulling them away and shoving them
aside. The beaten man got up and eased off into the crowd. The
crowd, glad at first to see the police arrive, grew quiet
when they understood that the man in the suit was saying
“That’s not the right guy.” It became clear
that the two assailants were not criminals being stopped in
mid-crime by the policeman in the suit, but
rather his subordinates, and that beating people was their job;
the only problem was that they had muffed this assignment.
At about this point the dream changed somehow so that it was
no longer something I was watching as if on a screen. I became
part of the crowd, which aside from me and a few others
was mostly young people. We grew first
angry and then frightened as it dawned on us that the man in the
suit was not a thug posing as a policeman but in fact an actual
thug. Somehow it became clear to me and to the whole crowd that
there was no distinction between the two. The man had all the
apparatus of the law at his disposal but there was no law, only
his whim, or perhaps the whim of someone from whom he took
orders.
The crowd began to murmur against him. He turned to us. His
cold face seemed a little familiar to me, no doubt in my dream
based on some movie villain. He glared at us, smiled a little,
reached into the crowd, and dragged from among us a young woman.
She was very pretty, with long thick hair of a dark auburn color,
and she wore a pale blue suit of an old style, something from the
‘40s or ‘50s.
He held her by the upper arm and with his other hand he pulled
a pistol from his coat, a small semi-automatic, not really a
policeman’s gun but one that might be used by an assassin
who expected to have his victim at close range. He said
“This is Amy. She went to Radcliffe. She’s going to
study nuclear physics.” And he seemed to find this last
very funny; I think he said it a second time. It was the mirth
with which we watch Harpo Marx make a fool of a pompous official,
the pleasure of seeing pretensions deflated: it amused him to see
the disparity between her expectations—nuclear physics,
indeed!—and her real situation.
Then he began to walk along the sidewalk, dragging the girl,
Amy, along with him—and by this time it seemed to all the rest of us that
she was someone we knew—and haranguing the
crowd. None of his words seemed intelligible yet we knew that
their general import was that we needed to understand that he was
in charge. We followed along but none of us had the courage to
challenge him Then he stopped abruptly, held Amy, who was
planning to study nuclear physics, at arm’s length, and
shot her in the temple. Blood and bone fragments sprayed from the
other side of her head, her body crumpled, and he let her
drop.
After this there was a gap, a sense that time had
lurched forward a few minutes. The man in the suit was gone, the
dead girl had been dragged away (somehow I knew she had been
dragged, with a deliberate indifference, to emphasize her
inconsequence). Most of the crowd was gone but a few of us
remained, filled with fear and an enormous heartbreak.
I was standing on the sidewalk looking down. Dark
blood, almost the color of the girl’s hair, ran from a pool
on the sidewalk into the sad little strip of struggling grass,
cigarette butts, and litter like the ones that lie between the
sidewalks and the streets of so many cities.
I woke up in the pure anguish of dreams. As I tried
to free my mind from it I comforted myself, as one does, with the
knowledge that the world does not really operate as it did in my
nightmare. Then I realized with renewed horror that there are
societies that really do operate that way, where the will of evil
and powerful men is the only law.
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Such a society was Saddam Hussein’s Iraq. Such things
could and did happen there, and far worse things: in Saddam
Hussein’s Iraq young women could be taken from the streets
and then raped and tortured before being shot. And there was no
law to which appeal for help or redress could be made. The thugs
and the police were one and the same.
As we consider with dismay the abuses of Iraqi prisoners by
Americans, we need to keep some perspective. In the rule of
abstract law which we are now trying to help the Iraqi people
achieve, such things are defects and aberrations which provoke
shock and correction, not the normal mode of governing. Our sins
do not constitute a moral equivalence between the rule of law and
the rule of a tyrant’s will.
History will judge, perhaps inconclusively for some time yet,
whether our conquest of the Hussein regime in Iraq was right or
prudent. But no sound moral judgment of our actions can be made
without giving serious weight to the evil that was being done,
and it has often seemed to me that opponents of the war fail to
do that. What we are attempting is to institute a new order which
is not that of my nightmare. This effort deserves to succeed. And
if we give up now it will certainly fail.